But I couldnt stand his being far away ... I was ... I am suffering ...
I have wished things could have been different ... but he didn't wish the same!!!
So .... now .... he doesn't want to have any contact with me anymore.
I do not know why he still keeps me in among his contact in FB and in MSN ... I really do not know it!!!
He has blocked me in MSN ... and he is not loging FB in ...
Sometimes I hope that maybe he will change his mind and this is the reason why he does not wipe me out!!!
By the way ... after more than 10 apologising emails ... no answer ... nothing!!!
I've passed the last days crying ... in total desperation!!! Sticked in bed ... with my notebook on my lap ... waiting for a word ... at least a word ...
He said to me that I have hurted and humiliated him ...
What about me??? On line in msn ... trying to keep in touch with him ... without receiving any attention???
Is this hurting and humiliating???
Probably not ... because this concerns me and not him!!!
I do not know... probably I wanna convince me that he is different from how he really is!!!
For sure he can be nice as well as egotist!!!
This unfortunately does not change things!!! I miss him ... and I am living in hell!!! Because I love him ... I really love him .... and even if he used to tell me that he loves me more than I do ... well this has never been true!!!
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